Shelby

I am completely unprepared for a decent post today, partially because I spent some time with Shelby this weekend. Shelby is an 8 week old Rottweiler puppy that a family member of mine recently adopted. I figured to make up for the lack of a thought provoking post today, I would overload you would adorable-ness, on a Monday no less!

 

Happy Monday!

End of the Week Roundup

This week has been a really great week. I've got to spend time with old friends and new friends, what more could I have asked for?


1. Friday night I went to dinner with my good friend Gabby. We met while going to the same university and is one of the few people I consistently hang out with. A friendship like ours is rare, and I'm so grateful for her. 

Old pic, since I committed blogger sin #1 and didn't take a picture of our recent outing...

2. Saturday Dave and I attended a friend's "Baby-Q" which was a barbecue/baby shower mixed. We both had a  great time and I was super excited to give my friend the quilt I had made for her baby.

3. Sunday I met up with MJ. If you don't know her, she is the amazing girl behind Luck Fupus. I really can't express how freaking awesome MJ is, both on her blog and in real life. She has tackled so many tough things in life and still manages to come out on top. We met up in King of Prussia mall which is the halfway point for both of us and did a little bit of shopping. Meeting a friend AND shopping? Yes please!

The Victoria's Secret was having a huge event while we were there so I got to try on the angel wings too. Would saying I was on cloud 9 be too much of a bad pun?

4. Last night, Dave called me just as I was leaving for work and surprised me with an impromptu date night. We had a quick dinner and then went to see Guardians of the Galaxy, which was hilarious!

5. Nibbler loves when I clear the bed to clean the sheets. He thinks we are playing a game and proceeds to hide under the sheets and grab at them when I try to take them. He's giving me the "come at me bro" look here:

How was your week?

Good Grief

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It's been a little over a month since I learned I miscarried and for the most part I'm doing okay. I still have my moments.

Right after my surgery, for about a week I felt nothing. I wasn't happy, I wasn't sad, I wasn't anything. I was literally in "feelings" limbo. People would ask me how I was doing and the only answer I could say was "I don't know" because I really didn't know. I went on autopilot and it scared me. As much as I didn't want to hurt, I knew that feeling the pain would help me work through everything. 

Then the beginning of the next week, I finally felt sad. It sounds weird to say, but it felt so good to feel sad. Feeling the pain of the loss, made me feel normal and human again. I cried to Dave, asked the questions I am sure everyone has asked at some point in time, "why us?" "is God punishing us?" "is this karma coming back, did I do something so bad that karma is reaping punishment?" 

There are still fleeting moments where I think about how far along I would have been. There have been epic meltdowns when stupid companies continue to email me and tell me weekly bump updates, even after I unsubscribe and tell them I've lost my child, three times. I would apologize for my harshly worded email but quite frankly I'm not sorry, and if said company was a real human being they would get a swift kick in the crotch. 

My heart aches when I see Dave interact with little ones. I know our time will come someday, but we had it. It was right there and now it's not. It still hurts, and I'm sure that's a pain that will never completely go away. 

I think the hardest part right now is the fact that this is right about the time that I would have announced it to the world that I was pregnant...which means every other girl out there who found out they were pregnant at the same time is announcing it now. It's funny, it doesn't bother me too much to hear that someone else is pregnant, I'm genuinely happy for them, but once I hear they are due in February it's like a punch to the gut. It takes everything I have not to curl up into a ball right there on the spot. 

I was working on my quilts the other day and heard "Small Bump" by Ed Sheeran. At first I thought, "oh great, just what I need to hear. This guy crooning about his soon to be baby", but something told me to keep listening and so I did. At the end of the song, he sings "Cause you were just a small bump unborn for four months then torn from life. Maybe you were needed up there but we're still unaware as why" and that last line pretty much summed up everything I was feeling, have been feeling, and probably will be feeling. 

It's a good song, I recommend giving it a listen. 

Wyebrook Farms

About a week ago, Dave and I discovered a local farm/cafe near our home that we wanted to check out, Wyebrook Farm. It was such a gorgeous place and the food was delicious! I was a little bummed that I didn't bring my camera with me, so I apologize, you're stuck with iPhone photos. 

Wyebrook Farm is a 360 acre farm located about 20 minutes away from our house. All the meat cooked in the cafe is from livestock that was raised on the farm, and most of the vegetables are also grown directly on the farm. All the other food is brought in from local suppliers and is all organic. 

When we first showed up, we checked out the market located above the cafe and then walked around the building to where the cafe is located on the patio. 

The menu ranged from casual like hamburgers and pulled pork to more formal like roasted chicken, pork chops, and (for the vegetarians) tofu. Dave and I both chose the bacon burger that had "baconaise" (seriously, my mouth is watering just thinking of it) and parmesan fries. We also chose fresh squeezed lemonade to drink. The view from the patio was incredible, we both couldn't stop commenting on how nice the place was. 

After dinner, we were given free range to walk around the farm and enjoy the view even more. We checked out the pigs, piglets, cows and goats. We also checked out their herb garden where I saw fully grown onions that were about to be picked for the first time. It was really neat to see how onions looked fully grown, it's something I've never thought about. 

The patio from the bottom of the hill

 It was such a great date night, I still smile when I think about the evening and the fun we had.

End of the Week Roundup

I can't believe it's August! This week has been really busy. It's just flown by which is nice but also hectic.

1. Friday night, I had dinner with my Aunt Penny and Uncle Chuck again. We went out to dinner and play The Cube Game and their answers had me  in tears. This is a picture of their dog Sadie that I stole from my aunt.

2. Saturday was my sister's wedding reception. She got married in Jamaica in June, but celebrated back home this past week. The reception was such a great time!

3. This week I have been spending all my free time trying to design a logo for my other creative outlet, my quilting "business". For someone with NO graphic design education its really time consuming and stressful, but still enjoyable. Here is the work in progress so far:

4. Speaking of quilting, I started a new project this week, making a t-shirt quilt out of onesies! 

5. Oh my Nibbler, always looking so darn cute. 

How did your week go?